The thoughts of an odd duck who sits alone in a night cafe, with a stylo in his right, a journal in his left, a valise under his chaise, a tasse on the table, and plenty of time to pass.
...i wish a hug could heal it all... but would it only hurt it?
~Benjamin 4/30/2005 07:50:00 PM
Knowing that I've caused soo much pain to somebody soo close to me is what really pains me. This is much harder than i thought. I don't want it to end like this. She totally doesn't deserve any of this as much as I do... I didn't wanna hurt anybody and that was the whole reason... but i guess it was too late. i dont have much of any experience in this sort of thing so i dont know if this is how im supposed to feel... If you're reading this, I'm sorry. i really am. and i'm not trying to cop out of feeling the way i feel right now. i didn't mean to cause you any hurt but it totally didnt work... and i dont think you should be the one who feels bad. I would like to make you feel better but im scared that i'll only make things worse. You're the first person in my life that i ever got that close with and the only one ive ever felt this way about...
~Benjamin 4/30/2005 01:44:00 AM
~ vendredi, avril 29, 2005 ~
this f*ckinSUX... why'd i ever listen to u.
~Benjamin 4/29/2005 08:47:00 PM